I've spent my entire life under the assumption that one day I'll meet my King and become his Queen.   I've spent all of my relationships putting forth endless effort--gluing broken pieces just to still have an ornament of love.  I've spent my season of singleness trying to be a "virtuous" woman--remaining God-fearing, abstaining from sex for 4+ years, encouraging/uplifting others, loving without limits, being moral, etc.  Then it finally hit me, "I'm doing all of this and I still may never find my life partner to share mutual love, romance, commitment and companionship.  Is it even worth abstaining from sex in hopes of sharing a special moment with a man that may not exist?  Does being the good girl really pay off?"  To this very day, these type of questions haunt me. My last serious committed relationship ended 4 years ago.  Never in a million years I thought I would remain a single woman for the next 4+ years, or not find someone who cares about me as much as I care about them.  After all, I've always been considered a great catch--the good ones don't get left behind right?  While I was in deep thought I asked myself, "What happens if you don't find your life partner in another 4 years, and then 4 more years after that, and so forth?  How does life look for you?  Will you hit rock bottom and act erratically because your prayers have remained unanswered?  Will you settle for some man that you don't truly love for the sake of companionship?  Will you let your self-confidence diminish and believe you're not enough?"